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[Jun. 22nd, 2007|04:04 pm] |
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| |  optimistic | ] |
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| | The Scientist - Coldplay | ] |
Mariah was right. It had to end. But not for the reason I expected. |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 17th, 2006|01:45 am] |
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| |  drained | ] |
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| | Linger - The Cranberries | ] |
Being at home just doesn't feel right. I don't know if that is because at the end of each semester the people who matter most to me are going back to their real lives in Europe, because my family life sucks, or just because I am changing. I want more than the life I had here.
And on Thursday I said goodbye to a certain Dutchman, who I will never see again in all of my days, with the parting words "Have a nice life, and if I am ever in the Netherlands, I will facebook you."
I don't think I have gotten any classier since high school . . . |
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| (no subject) |
[Nov. 15th, 2006|03:03 am] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  contemplative | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Running to Stand Still - U2 | ] |
THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
- Katichka
- Runs with Scissors
- AQ
THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
- I am willing to sacrifice things for other people
- I am not geographically ignorant
- I am a pacifist
THREE THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
- I have a mild form of OCD
- I can never save enough money
- I am a pushover
THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
- Irish
- French Canadian
- Sioux
THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
- When Molly pretends to be that guy from "The Shining"
- AIDS
- Never finding the right person
THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
- My prayer flags
- Plain bagels, lightly toasted with margarine
- My Gandhi poster
THREE PEOPLE YOU COULDN'T LIVE WITHOUT:
- Yuliya
- My RA, Gogie
- Molly
THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
- My peace shirt
- That necklace that Sophia made for me so long ago
- A bandaid
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS:
- U2
- Keane
- Les Choristes
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE ALBUMS:
- Born into Brothels Soundtrack
- The Lion King Soundtrack
- Damien Rice | O
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
- Going to Ukraine, Russia and Bulgaria
- Watching "Y Tu Mama Tambien"
- Growing my own organic produce
THREE THINGS YOU NEED IN A RELATIONSHIP:
- A foreigner
- A non-pansy man
- Laughter
THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
- Wrap a Buffalo Chicken Wrap
- Write in Arabic
- Stop swearing
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
- Speaking in tongues
- Dancing to Motown Hymns
- Swooning over my Spanish teacher
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
- Go to Russia
- Talk to Nast
- Be fluent in a dozen languages
THREE JOBS YOU'D CONSIDER DOING OTHER THAN THE ONE YOU HAVE:
- Teaching English as a second language in third world countries
- Peace Corps
- Translating
THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO TO:
- Darfur
- Novgorod
- San Francisco de la Paz
THREE KID'S NAMES:
- Adele
- Agamemnon
- Virgil
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
- Cure AIDS
- Go to the One World Cafe
- Go to every country |
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| (no subject) |
[Oct. 8th, 2006|12:21 pm] |
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| | ecstatic | ] |
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| | New Slang - The Shins | ] |
So there is this Dutch boy. And we will see where it goes.
How is it that them moment I leave high school, everything falls into place? I know that I am the same person, but I have never felt better about myself in my life. These are good times. |
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| (no subject) |
[Oct. 3rd, 2006|01:05 am] |
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| | grateful | ] |
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| | When I'm Sixty-Four - The Beatles | ] |
On a scale from one to ten, I adore my life right now.
Whoever said I should not befriend a swarm of Communist Russians needs to be slapped.
But not by me . . . I am a pacifist. |
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| You Can Run, You Can Hide, but You Can't Escape My Love |
[Sep. 29th, 2006|10:40 am] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | content | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Ying Yang - Jarabe de Palo | ] |
I feel so at home in my dorm room, and really amazingly comfortable with my roommates. And I get to teach this little Korean girl English. Yesterday, I taught her how to say "You are my only friend, Allie."
I have been talking to this random guy Keith lately, but I'd rather do it online, because in person I can only stare at his back hair.
My Russian teacher blinks rapidly when you get the genders wrong.
My Spanish teacher is a babe.
All in all, I am quite pleased with college. |
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| Durham: It's Where U Live . . . 24/7/365 |
[Sep. 14th, 2006|09:50 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | disappointed | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | The Shins - New Slang | ] |
Today I ate dinner with five people who did not speak the same language as I did. Today I befriended a homosexual Iranian named Mohummad. Today I finally told my Russian teacher that I need extra help. Today I bought a poster of Gandhi and draped it over my desk to remind me to be a better person. Today I saw Alex Rainey, Will Mullin and Chelsea Evans, just like I have every day I have been at college. Is my life really any different?
I don't know how to feel about UNH yet. It is where I have spent my whole life. It's where I have spent time with my friends. It is where most of my memories are from. And I think that I am afraid of replacing my old memories with new ones. I went to Portsmouth with some girls yesterday, and we were walking down towards The Toast when one of them goes "That is such a sketchy resturant," and kept walking. It is so weird to have the places that I have cherished, the town that I was raised in demolished with perspective. I don't want to put myself out there like that.
I am making friends. I am getting along with my roommates. I am doing well in my classes. I am likng my job. But I still feel lonely. I still feel empty. And I still miss my home. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jul. 26th, 2006|12:21 am] |
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| | loved | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Escape - Enrique Iglesias | ] |
I don't deserve my friends. |
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| Well I'm Countin' on a Miracle |
[Jul. 7th, 2006|11:36 am] |
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| | contemplative | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Wish You Were Here - Pink Floyd | ] |
I have been doing a lot of thinking lately. And I think I have figured out some stuff. |
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| Y'all |
[Jul. 25th, 2005|07:02 pm] |
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| | inexplicable | ] |
ah . . . birthday on wednesday.
here's to singing "I am 16, Going on 17," just because I can. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jul. 20th, 2005|04:41 pm] |
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| |  angry | ] |
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| | Click Clack Moo - Cows That Type | ] |
If I have to look at another major I am going to leap off my roof.
If I have to talk to a cranky, bitter old woman who is pissed off because she recently discovered she is on the cusp of death, and must infect everyone else with misery before she goes, I will kill myself.
If I have to talk to my supervisor one more time I will slit my throat.
Off to work, have a pleasant evening. |
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| So If You Care to Find Me, Look to the Western Sky |
[Jul. 15th, 2005|06:08 pm] |
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| | sobered | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Bring Him Home - Les Miserables 10th Anniversary Concert | ] |
HP Fiesta tonight, be there.
I wanted to be Fleur Declour.
She's a Veela.
But I look more like Bob Villa. |
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| Billy Mays = in a Blanket |
[Jul. 5th, 2005|11:18 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  happy as a lark | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | The Vapors - Turning Japanese | ] |
I have to keep looking at colleges. I have no future. Tim took my shift. Today I barfed Ramen noodles on the side of the road during my run. Meg told me I would. I was late to work. I talked to Kay. About the weather. And the geography of Canada. I tried to teach myself how to play the guitar. Only I didn't have a guitar.
Tom Cruise is a freak. Everytime I see him smirking from the cover of a tabloid I want to barf. Beef noodles. All over the side of the road.
Rhubarb is not a vegetable . . . oh the insanity.
Here comes the sun. |
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| I Still Don't Think He is Gone |
[May. 7th, 2005|09:06 pm] |
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| | teary eyed | ] |
i know it has been done a lot, but i need to talk about a couple of things.
i hate this, he was so young, we all seem so much older now. at times i think i am over it, and am going to be fine, but then i talk about it or think about it, and i can't handle it. i saw mrs. tag today when i was working, since she was dressed in all black i said "how were the services?" she said "they were really nice, he would have loved to see everyone there." "yeah, that's good." then i took a break to cry, came back and kept thinking about it. about him. about us.
on a perkier note, last night was wicked nice. i woke up this morning and didn't know how to feel, sad, yes, but at the same time, i felt like i had a weight off my back. who knew that applebees, kmart and a little puppy-like behavior could change your mood so much.
my love has not called me.
i am still waiting for matt to come back, and i can't say that deep within my heart that i know it won't happen. i really do believe he will return.
rest in peace, mateo. |
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[May. 4th, 2005|08:18 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | numb | ] |
i love you all, and i am so glad to have known you this far along. |
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| SAT Blues |
[Apr. 26th, 2005|07:39 pm] |
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| | bumming | ] |
a freakin 1680 on my SATS . . . a confidence boost for the rest of you i am sure.
not going to let the man get me down. |
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| I Will Soon Regret This |
[Apr. 19th, 2005|04:58 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| |  creative | ] |
"There are two kind of people in the world: those who love Bruce and those who've never seen him in concert."
HA HA HA . . . I beg to differ.
I love this song . . . shut up Libby . . .
Got a wife and kids in Baltimore, Jack
I went out for a ride and I never went back
Like a river that don't know where it's flowing
I took a wrong turn and I just kept going
CHORUS
Everybody's got a hungry heart
Everybody's got a hungry heart
Lay down your money and you play your part
Everybody's got a hungry heart
I met her in a Kingstown bar
We fell in love I knew it had to end
We took what we had and we ripped it apart
Now here I am down in Kingstone again
CHORUS
Everybody needs a place to rest
Everybody wants to have a home
Don't make no difference what nobody says
Ain't nobody like to be alone
CHORUS |
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| Sophie is my Eskimo Friend |
[Apr. 15th, 2005|09:26 pm] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | contemplative | ] |
Yeah, I have been listening to far too much Damien Rice than I really should lately, but this song is absolutely beautiful. It really means a lot to me, and I can relate to it. The opera towards the end is my favorite part, but I left the Finnish lyrics in there for those of you all who may prefer the hard core Finnish-ness of it all . . .
Tiredness fuels empty thoughts
I find myself disposed
Brightness fills empty space
In search of inspiration
Harder now with higher speed
Washing in on top of me
So I look to my eskimo friend
I look to my eskimo friend
I look to my eskimo friend
When I'm down, down, down.
Rain it wets muddy roads
I find myself exposed
Tapping doors, but irritate
In search of destination
Harder now with higher speed
Washing in on top of me
So I look to my eskimo friend
I look to my eskimo friend
I look to my eskimo friend
When I'm down, down, down.
(Next verse is in Finnish - sung by Doreen Curran - Brilliantly worked in, I have never seen an operatic in a song work so beautifully)
Kosketa minua.....Touch me
Halua käsilläsi.....Want me with your hands
Mua niin että.....So that
tunnen sinut.....I feel you
Halua minua.....Want me
Halua käsilläsi..... Want me with your hands
Huuto sielussa......A loud cry in the soul
saa.....makes...
Minä kaipaan.....Me miss
eskimoystävää.....An eskimo friend
Minä kaipaan.....I miss
eskimoystävää.....An eskimo friend
Minä kaipaan.....I miss
eskimoystävääni.....my eskimo friend
When I'm down, down, down.
When I'm down, down, down. |
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| Trival Issues |
[Apr. 14th, 2005|05:34 pm] |
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I suspected as much . . . |
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